i'm a barbie girl, in a barbie world.

I remember just a few years ago I was laughing and dissing people who I felt cared too much about their appearances. Girls who, spent hours on their makeup, took a week to plan their outfits and wasted saliva going on and on about what they'd like to change about their appearances. Back then, I didn't understand the hype. To me, these people were materialistic and superficial. I felt like they were wasting time and unnecessarily conforming to society's judgement. I also believed people could only be born pretty. (So wrong! Makeup!)

Ironically, I am now one of those silly girls who won't leave the house without atleast some concealer and powder on. I don't know when i started to care about my appearance. But I realised once I started, everything changed. Peers started to respect me, the teasing stopped, I started attracting attention, and instantly I felt everyone's attitude towards me change. Even I felt like I liked myself a little more.

I hate how I felt like I needed to be prettier to be accepted, but to an extent, it's true and fuck, I hate our generation for that. Our biased bullshit views might not have started with our gen, but it's definetely gotten stronger. In Mookie's gen, makeup was for rare occassion's but in our's, no makeup IS the 'rare occassion'. These days, presentation is everything. I once got a warning for being 'unappropriately dressed' at work. I was wearing tshirt and jeans. Like, seriously.

...Got distracted by TV so I've kinda lost my point. But I just saw some woman on TV, she broke her nose and OD'd on botox, causing one eye to droop. She fully messed up her face and it was so scary T_T!